Praise be to Allaah.
What the questioner mentions has to do with a kind of waswaas
(whispers from the shaytaan), because purification and prayer are simple
matters that do not need such concern. The religion of Allaah is easy and
there is no hardship in it, as Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning):
“and [Allaah] has not laid upon you in religion any
hardship”
[al-Hajj 22:78]
“Allaah intends for you ease, and He does not want to make
things difficult for you”
[al-Baqarah 2:185]
And the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon
him) said: “Religion is very easy and whoever overburdens himself in his
religion will not be able to continue in that way. So you should not be
extremists, but try to be near to perfection and receive the glad tidings
that you will be rewarded.” Narrated by al-Bukhaari (39).
The remedy for what you are suffering involves three things:
1-
Constantly persisting in
remembering Allaah, may He be exalted.
2-
Turning to Him and asking Him
for healing and recovery from this problem.
3-
Turning away completely from
that which the waswaas is calling you to do. So when you have relieved
yourself and washed yourself (istinja’), get up and do not pay any attention
to whether your hand touched a taahir (pure) place after touching the
najaasah (impurity), or that drops of the istinja’ water landed on your feet
or body, because the basic principle is that things remain taahir (pure),
and uncertainty as to whether your body or clothes have become impure does
not have any effect. You should understand that your body and clothes, the
place where you pray, and other things are pure and continue to be regarded
as pure unless we are certain that they have become impure. As for doubts,
imagination and waswaas, no attention should be paid to them. See the
answers to questions no. 62839 and
25778.
Purification and removal of impurity is done by washing the
private part; it is not essential to wash the area around it, so do not pay
any attention to the water that drops elsewhere, as stated above. Be
confident that you are taahir (pure), praise be to Allaah, and that your
prayer offered with this purification is valid and accepted, if Allaah
wills, for Allaah is Most Merciful and Kind, and He shows mercy to His
sinful slaves, so how about those who are obedient and love Him?
With regard to deciding to stop wudoo’ or prayer, that does
not matter either, rather you should ignore these thoughts and carry on with
your wudoo’ or prayer, because there is no reason to interrupt an act of
worship, rather this is waswaas and it does not affect your act of worship,
praise be to Allaah. No matter what thoughts of interrupting your act of
worship or repeating it come to you, do not pay any attention to that, and
carry on with it, and ask Allaah to accept it, because you have done as much
as you could, and you have done what was required of you, and Allaah does
not burden any person beyond his scope.
Remember this advice, and carry on, and ignore the waswaas,
for it is a trick of the shaytaan, but his tricks are weak as our Lord has
told us. Be confident that if you ignore the waswaas it will disappear, by
the power of Allaah.
We ask Allaah to help you to obey Him and to make you happy
by worshipping Him, and to take away the problem that you are facing.
And Allaah knows best.